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Feeling Some Type of Way

I just don't know anymore. It's like I'm just waiting for my life to ya know start. Here I am 17, a good student, poor as a field mouse and with what feels like few people (if any) I can say honestly understand me. I'm sorry I'm getting emo I'm on ,y period but I don't know I just feel so unaccomplished and empty. My so called best friend is acting brand new, I'm envious of my in college sister, and my parents never liked me, etc. I don't know what brought these feelings on all of a sudden. Well maybe that's a lie. I was looking though Steven Tyler autobiography trying to decide if I should get it and it really depressed me seeing how much he's done with his life and how little I've done with mines. Well to be fair he's 63 and had nothing but luck but still. I hell I don't know. I'm feeling anxious, lonely, sad, and tiny bit hopeful. I just want to be successful basically. What what does success mean? I don't know. I'm going to try to figure it out.

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Try not to let this worry you, you're only 17 :) I hope that doesn't seem patronising, but you're really young and so long as you work hard, which I get the impression you will, you should be absolutely fine. Hope you start feeling a bit more positive about things soon x
I hope so (obliviously) but sometimes I get so doubtful :(
The thing about being 17 is that at your age you are just stepping your toe into the real world. The older you get, generally speaking, the less friends you have. But the ones you keep are golden. And I have to tell you, I'm 28 and a mother of two, slave to my job and at the beginning of a divorce...and I am also still waiting for my life to start. I'm not sure if that's comforting or not, but there it is :)
It is a little comforting. Thanks hun :)